*Muigab omaette*
Melli jättis posti alla kommentaari :"Millal siis glögi jooma? :D"
Ütleme nii, et minupoolest kasvõi kohe, kaua sellega veel viivitada xD. Ainus mure on see, et alati kui meelde tuleb ei ole sa online ja alati kui sind kohtan, ei omama mälu :D

Kuid mis hetkel toimub? Hetkel toimub Metallica kuulamine, Henriga kergelt kaklemine, Triinuga laulmine ja surnuks külmumine.. Vähe huvitab, et kell üks kohe saab - ma teen toa keskele lõkke varsti! Nii külm ei anna olla ühes toas.. <(-.-)>

Ma otsustasin oma tulevase ameti ära (jälle) - kokk/kondiiter! Kuigi jah, ilmselt söön ma selle ennem ära kui see valmis saab.. Nagu tänane näitas - ärge jätke Scrati tainaga ühte kööki.. Kui te naasete on tainast vähem..

Mulle ei meeldi jahu.. Alati kui ma sellega midagi teen olen ma lõpuks ülepeakaela sellega koos ja ei ole ise sellest arugi saanud.. Tänane näitas seda..

Kool on loll koht.. Lihtsalt peab virisema selle üle.. Kuna nädal aega jäi tänu sundpuhkusele vahele sellest, on see raske.. Mis sest et teist nädalat seal olin ja pessimistlikum kui kunagi varem.. Mis teha, optimism on mägede taga. Samuti öeldi et olen kohutavalt vaenulik.. Ei saanud nagu ise arugi sellest, kuid mis teha.. Koguaeg ei saa ka rõõmsameelne olla.. All of us have breakdowns sometimes.. Nothing that a good 12 hours of sleep wouldn't fix.

Viimasel ajal lausa magnetina tõmbab Paidesse.. Rebaseheina ja Martinsoni juurde.. Puhkust on vaja kõigest sellest ja nemad on ideaalsed selle korraldamiseks.. Või siis õigemini adrenaliini-üledooside korraldamisel.. "Kui süda on suur, on vahemaad väiksed" ütleb Chalice.. Aga kes teab, äkki see ongi tõsi ja peaks kuhugile ise sõitma, ignoreerides keelde.. Mis ikka juhtuda saab.. Tegelikult.. Ikka palju saab.. Kui igatsus liiga suureks kasvab, panen asjad kokku ja lähen..

"This is the end, you know.. The plans we had went all wrong.." *ümiseb omaette* Inimesed muutuvad ja seda ehk isegi liiga kiiresti.. Kes oli kord hooliv ja sõbralik on nüüd õel ja narriv.. Kes esmamuljel tundus jube on nüüd hingelähedane.. Kõigi nende muutuste keskel jäävad alles vaid mõned üksikud, kes muutuvad koos sinuga.. Need sinule kallid. They have always been there for you and you have always been there for them.. As a good friend or a best friend, as a lover or as an dear one. And when it all suddenly comes to an end, they are the ones who are there for you at your time of need. And because they are bound to you as you are to them.. They are not afraid to show their feelings and emotions towards you. Seeing one of them cry because someone makes you want to kill the one who is blamed.. Like it has been said trough a note of joke: A good friend will come and bail you out of jail. A best friend will be sitting next to you saying:"Damn.. How did we end up here?"

Valentine's Day is coming soon.. I like that holiday, tho it has turned to a commercial carneval.. The idea of it is still cute.. Red roses and words of love.. What a shame that it turned out the way it is..

*Found an old picture of herself, taken 2 years ago* Creepy.. Long red hair, tanned skin, no glasses and no headphones.. And wtv, high-heels?? The only thing that has remained until this day is the ripped jeans.. I miss those long hair.. Things were so different back then.. Not too different from the way they are now.. I am different too.. I don't spend all of my summer-days in the beach sunbathing and swimming.. Don't listen so much of Smilers, Terminaator and Three Days Grace like i did back then.. I was a complete and total Harry Potter freak from the tip of my toes to the end of my hair.. Everyone were different too.. Kertu had a crush of Rauno Kutti, the guitarrist of Mushy.. She, Anna and I were Hp freaks and thought we will be until our dying day.. Oh, those were the days.. When we didn't need that special someone in our lives.. Though, to come to think of it.. I had one! Asser was his name.. I've seen him once from afar and bever after that.. The thing that broke us apart was a death of her classmate.. He became obsessed with her.. He ended up hurting me the worst ways possible.. Life's a bitch.. What can we do.. We can change it !

We are not supposed to follow trough our lives quietly, we are supposed to leave a mark of us, that we existed. everything starts from us.. If we are weak or are we strong. If we give up and surrender or just grit our teeth and fight back with everything we've got. What happens, happens. The time we have lost because of our stupididy is lost and we never can get it back. We are not the ones we were yesterday and won't be the tomorrow that we are today.

With those silly sections of my mind typed to the computer, i leave you to go and dream in my own world. A world that is mine, a world that belongs to me only. Sayonara!