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Chillidancer

Heihoo. Mina siin jällegi. 

Ma olen tööl, jällegi. Viimasel ajal on jäänud selline tunne, nagu ma elaksin siin. Kuid see on vast suureks kasvamise hind.. Sa pead end liigutama, venitama, ribadeks kiskuma ja vastu pidama. Because there is not any quitting. Acctually, there is. But that's the losers way. And I'm not a loser. Work hard and love will come, they say. Maybe it should be work hard and love will leave you. That's life for you. But it is better to work hard and make an effort than live off your parents and say you'll never find somebody and be forever alone.

Today the radio was playing and a weird conversation was taking place. But there were some good bits too. Like when someone says that they will never find love, they just haven't searched. And not searched meaning looking with their eyes really opened. Also the lady said that to be happy you don't need a million dollar view off your balcony but all you have to do is live without regrets. Some might say "easier said than done". But it really is easy. H said that he lives like playing chess. Thinking a move forward. In idea, it is good. Because then you won't run into a mess. You won't be in a situation where the only thing you can do sit with your hands in your laps and ask "what have I done..". Or "what will i do?" 

But as for me I am the same when I started this blog all these years ago. I live one day at a time. Yes, I have started thinking of the future, but not like some people. I am 19 now, so I kind of have to think forward. Some say that I am too young to think about things like marriage and children. I'm not saying that I am going to get one now. It's more like I welcome the idea, but some years have to pass. 

But some things have changed, little things. And some have not. I am still a redhead. I have earphones most of the time. I have a strange accessory ( I have a white hat, that i bought in Hamburg). I still adore Northbridge's sneakers. I drink coffee more that tea. I have developed some sense of style other that "this is clean, i shall wear this today". I love strawberries. I love computers. I have almost mastered the skill of shooting photos with a straight horizon. I still fear the dark more than anything, but that can be something deeper. Let's give it a few more years.. I have an umbrella and it's yellow. I still have those wild mood swings that make me want to bite someones head off one second and hug the same person the next moment. I have come to love small children.  

Thanks to my job, i have lost a lot of weight. Mari came by today with his lover. When i came away from the counter and she saw how skinny I am she asked what's wrong in a serious voice. Apparently I look like an ant. But no worries, when the summer is over, i should be back to my normal amount of skinniness. My hair has grown long again. And for the first time in the history of my hair I don't want to cut it, imagine that. 

Hello my dear, you are mine. 

Ehk siis mul on jällegi uus arvuti. Seekord olen ma liitunud Delluse klubiga. Hetkel olen ma tööl, ootan et kell saaks kolmveerand kümme, et saaksin ukse lukku panna ja vaikselt kassat teha. Ning selle käigus kassat peksta, juhendit peksta ja siis käega lüües suvalisi numbreid kirjutada. Nali, tegelikult ei ole asi nii hull. Kuid kurjaks saan kõll enam-vähem alati, kui seda teen..

Arvuti koha pealt et sain abi selle soetamiseks päääris massiivselt. Ning et see on nunnu ja võimas ja siin saab WOWi mängida. Naera jah, kuid mulle meeldib.  Algeselt oli siin peal Ubuntu 10.10, kuid see sai maha  võetud pool-sunniviisiliselt, kuna ma ei oleks saanud sellega WOWi mängida. Või isegi oleks, kuid mingi rämeda pusimise ja nurga abil. Not worth it. Ma võin Ubuntuga sügisel uuesti mässama hakata, mulle väga meeldis see. Selline põnev ja omamoodi kiiksuga, keeruline ja loogiline samaaegselt.

Hetkel mängib siin R2, mingi rocki-kolmapäev vms. Mulle istub. Mul on selge vaade uksele, et kui keegi peaks sisenema saan oma kännuämbliku asendist kiirelt jalad alla ja neid naeratusega tervitada.

Tänu sellele, et mul siin antud hetkel midagi teha ei ole, olen ma saanud aega uurida kausta, mida J kutsub Hamburgi-okseks. Põnev..

Imeline teravus. Pilt sellest, kui olin nii unine, et kui peopreilid olid lahkunud võtsin fotoka kaissu ja kobisin teki alla kerra.

Pange tähele viimasel pildil minu põlve. Kuidagi paks, eh? Rääkimatta sellest et näkku paistab selline päike et ise ka ei usu.. 

Ma vist lähen teen midagi kasulikku. Ei saa midagi lubada. Aga ma üritan. ^^

Woosh.

Juhiksin tähelepanu viimasele pildile, ma ei hakanudki nutma ega pistnud punuma.